You Deserve to Hear My Testimony

I woke up about an hour ago to my baby boy pounding on my ribs, as he often does in the late hours of the night. As I sat in wonderment of the little life growing inside me, I began to feel guilt. I felt guilty of the beliefs and truths I know being hidden away. It isn't fair of me to have the beliefs I have which make my life so happy, when so many don't even know what the reason for this life is. Now, I know many people have different beliefs, thought and reason in this life and the possibility of the life after-- And that is GREAT! smile emoticon We were sent here for that purpose! To decide for ourselves what is truth and how it affects our decisions. This is not by any means supposed to be preachy or overly religious. It's just what I believe.
I believe that my family can be together forever. This vague thought to me means that by righteous living and making certain sacred covenants, I can truly, physically have my husband and son forever. I can see my parents even after their lives here are done. I will be able to embrace my wonderful siblings who have influenced my life so much. I believe that I will have a life with them, if I decide to live my life in a way that I can. 
I believe in this wonderful book called The Book of Mormon. I believe it to be another testament of Christ, written here on the American continent. I believe it goes hand in hand with The Bible, a beautiful testament of Christ. I believe that by reading these scriptures, I can learn about my Savior and about what my Father in Heaven wants me to focus on in this life.
I believe in Christ. Not as a fictional man in a story book or as some teacher that did some good things. I believe in him as my Savior. I believe he was a person that was all man and all God, which allowed him to do the things he needed to in this life. I know he served, taught and loved everyone during his life. I believe his last sacrifice was done so that each of us would be able to live with our families forever. That even when we made a wrong decision or lived less honorably than we should, we could make up for those mistakes and be clean. I believe he loves us so much, he'd be willing to do that.
I believe that the trials and tribulations we face in this life is for our good. I've heard people as "how can there be a God when there is so much sickness and hurt and pain". I believe that because our Father in Heaven loves us each so much, he has given us these trials. Through every hardship I've faced in my short 20 years, I feel like it has been for my better. I was able to learn that I was stronger than I ever thought possible. I was able to build faith in my Father in Heaven without seeing his face or hearing his voice. I was able to know my Father in Heaven because of the hidden blessings that came from each trial of my life. 
I know I can speak to my Father in Heaven through prayer, and that he truly listens. Sometimes, that's all I need him to do. I believe, just like my relationship with my earthly father, I am able to speak to my Heavenly Father to receive guidance, comfort and a bounce of faith or trust when I feel like I have none left in me.
I believe that President Thomas S Monson is a prophet of God. I believe that the apostles are truly sent from our Father in Heaven. When I see these elderly men, so humble and kind, I can't help but believe they have to men of God. They live in a way that shows the face of God-- They serve, love, pray for us and so much more. Their focus is to serve everyone, not just those that choose the same beliefs as they do. 
Now, this was a super long post, so I by no means thought any of you had to read the entire thing. I just wanted to know that I shared something so special to me with the people I love. I know each of us can be happy in this life and we should seek what truly gives us joy. For me, that is acknowledging my Heavenly Father and by living the commandments he has given me. And trust me, it is the greatest form of happiness.

Reasons I Love Your Daddy- Reason 4

You're Daddy does a lot of random things for me. He gets me sodas, heats up my food, rubs the knots in my back and anything else I need at the moment, no matter how small or meaningless. I love him so much for this, because it's a small way in showing he thinks of me. You're Daddy will do the same thing for you. Every time he'll change your diaper, feed you a bottle, take you to bed, clean and care for you, it's his small way of showing he loves you. When he'll play with you or hold you when you're hurt, it's cause he wants to be there for you. That's the amazing thing about Daddy's, especially yours. They'll do anything for their baby. And so will Momma. I love you. And I love your Dad.

Reasons I Love Your Daddy- Reason 3

You're Daddy has the most amazing smile. It's sometimes hard to see it, because he doesn't like to smile, but when he does, it's magical. His dimples embrace the corners of his lips. He is attractive and wonderful when he smiles. Find someone with a good smile, because it'll be a piece of them passed on to your children. When I see the smile, it makes so many of my burdens pass off. I hope you have his smile and learn how to use it. I want to see those dimples on my beautiful child. There are so many things you can get from him that will be something to be grateful for.

Reasons I Love Your Daddy- Reason 2

As you grow up, you'll notice people call others really cruel names. You'll probably be referred to by these names, or maybe you'll even call someone one of them. I ask that you learn, now, that it doesn't make a situation better or make someone hear you or understand you any better. You're Daddy has never said a cruel name to me, which is more than I can say for myself. He never calls me all the things that some people have called me my entire life. I guess I got myself to believe that if someone made you upset, they deserved to be put down. It wasn't until your father told me that he doesn't feel like that should happen in a relationship that I even thought about it. He mentioned to me that for every cruel thing you say, each person loses respect for the other and it puts them at a struggle in their relationship. You're Daddy astounded me when he said that, because I never thought of it in those ways. You're father doesn't yell or scream at me and tries his hardest to not belittle me. That's more than can be said about most people my age, including myself. Follow your Dad in that aspect, it's one of his most amazing traits.

Reasons I Love Your Daddy- Reason 1

He is the hardest worker I've ever seen. He works and does so much. He does 7-9 hour days every day. He drives 2 hours every day to work. He comes home and does dishes and chores to help me. I love how much he does, cause he does things some men wouldn't be willing to do. He holds me in moments I am falling to pieces. Sometimes it's hard because I want him to be here instead of working or to not hold me because I'm angry at him. But he always tries to, because he wants to be there for me the best he can.

Dear Baby Gutierrez,

The day before Easter in 2014, Daddy and I were in Walmart (at a time much too late. We should have been sleeping!) We walked around the store, buying some Easter presents for your cousins and as we walked by the baby section, we saw these ducky pajamas. They were ADORABLE. Even though we had no idea about when we would have you, we knew we HAD to have those jamas.
So, a couple of months later, Mommy and Daddy were so excited to hear about you. When we found out, Mommy started to cry, as she often does, with Daddy's eyes beginning to water. June 2014 was the greatest month in our married lives and one of the greatest moments in our lives. We instantly were in love with you. That's when I remembered the ducky pajamas in the closet. We grabbed it and held it, imagining you in our arms. We began to refer to you as our ducky and talked about all the things we were hoping to have in our lives with you.
What I mainly want you to know is that we were excited about you before we even knew you were there. Mommy and Daddy wanted a sweet baby to love and to care for. You are a light in our lives. You already make me want to be a better person every day. I love you, and can't wait to know you.